Many Months
Oct. 8th, 2007 11:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
captainryan(It’s hurting again, now)
Ryan’s trying not to get attached to these people, but after months of no Door, he’s having a hard time of it. Egon, despite his tendency to make Ryan’s eyes glaze over twice as much as Ray does, more than makes up for it with his technical expertise and sheer amounts of logic. Not to mention that it’s his machine keeping Ryan solid.
(And I don’t need friends when I have foes like you)
Ray’s exuberance is still trying at times, but he tries hard to make Ryan feel welcome, which the werewolf does appreciate, even if he doesn’t let on. He’s also the one most eager to answer Ryan’s questions about the city, what they do, and, well, anything, really.
(It’s hurting again, now)
Venkman is just as annoying as ever, having given Ryan a nickname, much to his annoyance. Between pranks and slacking, Ryan feels like he’s dealing with a child more often than not, and as much as the man grates on his nerves, he’s soon dealing with it as everyone else does: eye-rolling.
(It’s killing me to be here all alone)
But if Venkman is child, then Slimer is the exuberant puppy that just won’t listen. Ryan finds himself growling at the ghost more often than is healthy, not that it does any good since he seems to have the memory of a goldfish.
(Go away)
It’s Winston he gets along with best, since they seem the most alike. He knows when he can no longer take the other’s company and loudness, he can still find Winston and easily read in comfortable silence (and he’s finding the books on magic quite interesting). He even offered to jog with the younger man, and though it meant he had to slow down, he found he didn’t mind. If anything, it was rather nice to have someone to run with.
(It’s all the same)
And in the centre of it all is Janine, who deals with all of them with nearly never ending patience. Ryan often gets the feeling that nothing fazes her, at least not for long, and that her display of boredom at the desk is anything but a show. Not bad for a civilian.
(There’s more for me)
So while he’s tried not to get attached, only an idiot would fail to notice that he had. And that worried him because what happened when the Door opened? And what if it didn’t? Was this his consolation prize for losing Deitmar and Suzi? Trapped in this world where he faded every three days because it was Milliways subtle way of telling him it was time to move on? Or is this just an easing of transition until he realized it was time to fade forever?
(As the world falls away)
He doesn’t want to go.
(And I can’t find a reason)
Besides that, he promised his pack he wasn’t leaving any time soon. He fully intends to keep that promise, even when weeks stretch into months. It’s hard, though, when at quiet moments after very long days he starts to wonder if maybe fading is a good idea after all, to let go completely, because except for Suzi and Deitmar, there really isn’t anything for him at Milliways…
(As the world turns to grey)
But really, Suzi and Deitmar are all he needs. As much as he’s grown attached to the Ghostbusters, concerned with their well being, he doesn’t love them. He loves Suzi. He loves Deitmar. And he misses them both terribly.
(It’s killing me unwillingly and I am just the same as you)
He wants to go home. He's just not certain that he can.
Ryan’s trying not to get attached to these people, but after months of no Door, he’s having a hard time of it. Egon, despite his tendency to make Ryan’s eyes glaze over twice as much as Ray does, more than makes up for it with his technical expertise and sheer amounts of logic. Not to mention that it’s his machine keeping Ryan solid.
(And I don’t need friends when I have foes like you)
Ray’s exuberance is still trying at times, but he tries hard to make Ryan feel welcome, which the werewolf does appreciate, even if he doesn’t let on. He’s also the one most eager to answer Ryan’s questions about the city, what they do, and, well, anything, really.
(It’s hurting again, now)
Venkman is just as annoying as ever, having given Ryan a nickname, much to his annoyance. Between pranks and slacking, Ryan feels like he’s dealing with a child more often than not, and as much as the man grates on his nerves, he’s soon dealing with it as everyone else does: eye-rolling.
(It’s killing me to be here all alone)
But if Venkman is child, then Slimer is the exuberant puppy that just won’t listen. Ryan finds himself growling at the ghost more often than is healthy, not that it does any good since he seems to have the memory of a goldfish.
(Go away)
It’s Winston he gets along with best, since they seem the most alike. He knows when he can no longer take the other’s company and loudness, he can still find Winston and easily read in comfortable silence (and he’s finding the books on magic quite interesting). He even offered to jog with the younger man, and though it meant he had to slow down, he found he didn’t mind. If anything, it was rather nice to have someone to run with.
(It’s all the same)
And in the centre of it all is Janine, who deals with all of them with nearly never ending patience. Ryan often gets the feeling that nothing fazes her, at least not for long, and that her display of boredom at the desk is anything but a show. Not bad for a civilian.
(There’s more for me)
So while he’s tried not to get attached, only an idiot would fail to notice that he had. And that worried him because what happened when the Door opened? And what if it didn’t? Was this his consolation prize for losing Deitmar and Suzi? Trapped in this world where he faded every three days because it was Milliways subtle way of telling him it was time to move on? Or is this just an easing of transition until he realized it was time to fade forever?
(As the world falls away)
He doesn’t want to go.
(And I can’t find a reason)
Besides that, he promised his pack he wasn’t leaving any time soon. He fully intends to keep that promise, even when weeks stretch into months. It’s hard, though, when at quiet moments after very long days he starts to wonder if maybe fading is a good idea after all, to let go completely, because except for Suzi and Deitmar, there really isn’t anything for him at Milliways…
(As the world turns to grey)
But really, Suzi and Deitmar are all he needs. As much as he’s grown attached to the Ghostbusters, concerned with their well being, he doesn’t love them. He loves Suzi. He loves Deitmar. And he misses them both terribly.
(It’s killing me unwillingly and I am just the same as you)
He wants to go home. He's just not certain that he can.
