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Apr. 5th, 2009 09:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
captainryanIt’s been some time since he found her note. His mind’s been swimming with ‘what if’s’ ever since.
What if she asks him? What if he says yes?
What if she doesn’t like it?
What if it disgusts her? What if she hates it? What if she grows to hate him because of it?
He’s tried to explain all the aspects to her, purposefully bringing up the parts that should make her change her mind about it. He’s tried to make her see the predator side of it, the instincts, the blood.
He doesn’t know what to tell her.
What else can he tell her, besides flat out no?
He doesn’t think he’ll be able to forgive himself if she hates it.
She says she’s done the research. Hell, he knows she’s done the research, he’s seen bits of it for himself. There’s just…he can’t believe observation and books can adequately prepare someone for what a werewolf is.
What he is.
What she’s considering becoming.
He wants to be able to say yes. He really would. Because if she likes it- If she likes it, that would be-
He doesn’t let his mind down that path. He doesn’t want to get his hopes up.
Because.
What if she hates it?
What if she asks him? What if he says yes?
What if she doesn’t like it?
What if it disgusts her? What if she hates it? What if she grows to hate him because of it?
He’s tried to explain all the aspects to her, purposefully bringing up the parts that should make her change her mind about it. He’s tried to make her see the predator side of it, the instincts, the blood.
He doesn’t know what to tell her.
What else can he tell her, besides flat out no?
He doesn’t think he’ll be able to forgive himself if she hates it.
She says she’s done the research. Hell, he knows she’s done the research, he’s seen bits of it for himself. There’s just…he can’t believe observation and books can adequately prepare someone for what a werewolf is.
What he is.
What she’s considering becoming.
He wants to be able to say yes. He really would. Because if she likes it- If she likes it, that would be-
He doesn’t let his mind down that path. He doesn’t want to get his hopes up.
Because.
What if she hates it?
